The way this blog starts to let my thought flow and see where that takes me. Not for others to read it until a better research analysis surfaces. It is not written correctly as it should be. I am doing free care writing and to let my thought flow and have data to work with. By the end of this weekend, I will have my first draft.
I ended up having to refocus my thoughts, ideas and finding based on the fact that I began to see things I was not seeing before. This prompted to me relook at the entire data on file. But, I am glad because this is a step towars the successful completion of my paper. I want to write the best paper I can possibly write. I know I can because I have done written good papers in the past. I write well when I have a passion and when I put time and effort.
It is Friday and I still have time to work one more hours on blogging before I go home to take my daughter to her school dance. I am not happy with her because I got an email from her professor today about her not doing a project and this is not the first time she done that plus I have spoken to her many times about doing her spanish homework. Latelly she has been going outside to play and I guess she disregarded her homwork. I am so bad. She is smart. Why she does not do it. Why I have to talk to her so much. It kills me sometimes. But, this morning, I received a revelation from God knows where...well I guess I do know..from this audio take I bought. It speaks about classroom room procedures and I figure I will put better procedures at home so that everyone do their part cleaning the house..not just me. I have school work to do and everyone has me like I am their maid. They through dishes in the sink and do not clean even if I tell them too. But, I have change my strategies tonight.
Well, here I go, I gathered all my data and put them on this blog. I put all of them together on this blog again after I had separated them before. I also have go look on my home computer and my USB to get the complete data transcript from my recorder because what had happened was that I left pieces out of the blog because I had thought they were not important. Now, I am realizing that they are important. I will study all the data and find articles most likely different from my previous selection. The reason why I am going all this is because I am beginning study the data from a different point of view.
So, now I started to break them down again to study them again with a new perspective. Therefore, I am going to write about what I see. First, perhaps, my ealier observation was pessimistic, personal and rather crude. Perhaps I was being judgemental and I don't want to judge or look beyond what I was told and what the data shows. I must acknowledge that many adolescents try things out because they are growing up and finding their own identity. When I was growing up in my adolescent years, I did not try things out or engaged in socially immoral or illegal acts for many reasons. I did not surround myself with people who did and neither did it crossed my mind. People suffer the consequences of their wrong decisions. I had learned about the consequences from hearing family members speak against premature sex and effects of using drugs and the negative image a person gained as a result of doing illegal deeds such as stealing or selling drugs. I basically stayed away from certain activities because they did not go with my moral values inherited from my family. I believe in honest hard work and obtaining a better future than the future my grandparents, mother and her brothers and sisters had. Since I had arrived as a child to United States, the land of opportunity, as opposed to them, I have a better chance at a better future than they did. It has been that observation of the things I do not want to be which made me want to change the course of my life. I strive to obtain the highest college education I can possibly get. Therefore, I have little tolerance for people who live in this country and do not pursuit an education but rather chose to engaged in ilicit activities. They end up hurting their own future and our society.
But, I have come to the conclusion that I should put judgement to the side and look at my data objectively and fair. What we have here is an adolescent who thinks he doing the right things to make it in this world but is unwared that he is reflecting a negative image of himself and he does not care. which was up such as trying things out or gaining experience and then realizing then really do not want that, I can now trully see what is being said to me. Provided the adolescent's environment and what he knows, he is trying to make it as best as he can. He probably needs coaching and most likely he will go through struggles and failing and getting up. But, one thing is certain, he wants to make it. He is sure that he says that he can do it that he will be able to have success in education. He seemed certain when he affirmed that if others in worse situation made it that he can make it too. He does not see obstacle. He sees his potential and does not give up. One time, he lost all his poem but his passion is so big, he wrote again and remade his collection. He enjoys wring poem and making music.(more to follow)
The underlined part #1.
Adolescent want to do the right thing but they are not doing it the right way. (rhetoric). Sending the wrong message about themselves through their actions. (literature) He wanst an education and thinks he is taking the right approach. a. ambitious in a good way. b. I see myself as a normal regular person that wants to succeed like everyone else in this world. c.I have no idea how people see me and I dont really mind because I go tto see myself for the things I think are best for me. I don't really mind how people see me. I really mind how my family sees me but people not related to me, I don't care. d. 1. school choice, 2. not sticking to the plan 3. drinking 4. arguing(direspect). I had asked Chachi how he sees himself.He stated that he sees himself as a good person who is on the right path.By, this he meant, that he is pursuing higher educational achievements.The path he has taken is however, nothing but a substandard pathway. First, the young man is 19 years old and has not graduated from High School. He could have attended High School, but instead he elected to attend a Vocational School. His enrollment at this school reflects a lack of seriousness about his studies since the teaching is a step down from a High School education. A Vocational School does not measure up in high educational goals. To obtain a college education, a High School education is most appropriate because that edification prepares us for college work. I got the impression that he lie at various instances of the interview. He said, "I see myself as a normal regular person that wants to succeed like everyone else in this world". Yets, his behavior in school, is not aligned with his stated desire. In school, he fails to comply with the school policies. For example, as an automobile class member, he did not wear the class required clothes attire.Because he did not comply with the class requirement, he was expelled from that class. A student who is committed to succeed does not rebel against the well intended practice of the school. Another class that did not go well for him was a culinary class. He had been excited to take part in this class, but ended excluded as well.In this culinary class, the teacher gives students cleaning duties before they are taught cooking aspects; however, he expected to learn to cook right away. He did not like going to cooking class to clean. He felt it was a waste of time. His action reflects an unwilling to start at the bottom and make his way up. Starting at the bottom is normally what a person has to do to earn success. He gave the good things about himself as he sees them.But, he also gave a clue. He said, "I may argue with my Mom" that and that this is the only thing he does that's inappropriate about him.Here, he took a defensive mode. Since no one had attacked him, it appeared that he took a defensive position which means that he is guilty and this a fallacy of his. He thinks that arguing with his mom is not too significant. My guess is that he compares his action to that of others around him so by which his actions are well represented in comparison. The tone of his voice was also very defensive here. While he may be the person doing the best work to achieve or change of course of his circumtances; he has to really do a better job at setting himself about from the crowd. Success takes drastic changes and sacrifices in the choices we make because rarely anything comes by luck or in a easy manner. In my opinion, an adolescent arguing with his parents is plain disrespectful and should not be practiced. When in disagreements, the child should speak to the mother about how he feels. But, he should not approach his mother with a harsh tone of voice or in confrontational manner.A mother in her rightful status deserves respect as she is the head of the home.She pays the bills and buys the groceries without money contribution from her kids. During the interview there are many times that Chachi did not want to speak about past major conflicts he had with his mother. He refused to give examples of instances when he made her upset. Withholding information is his way of hiding truth. At one point, major misconducts were left out because he did want to talk about what brought the conflict.
DATA
On recorder 1.
In the recorder: I am here with my friend Chichi 5/14/2013. The time is now 3:47. An interview is being conducted and we both agree to be recorded. Real names will be kept confidential.
I began introducing the interview in Spanish. This I did for warm up purpose for the several present people and for myself. In the room, there was his brother and an uncle. I was not sure if it was a good idea let them be in the room or ask to be left alone. They very interested on observing the interview though and I thought it was good for the environment to get Chichi to open up. I am not sure how this played out yet.
Me in the recorder, “So, now, I will speak in English because I will be writing in English therefore I rather do the interview in English since we both speak English”.
Mine. So, thank you Chichi for agreeing to interview with me. It really is a pleasure to meet with you and thank you ahead of time for doing this for me.
Mine. So, tell me do you have any goals? Or things you would like to do in your future?
C. Well, I….goals
Mine. What are you currently doing?
C. I am doing out of cat. Out of cat, computer computer classes. Goals, I would like to go to college and try to be a detective or if not. I don’t know… I am stucked.
Mine. So, basically you think maybe you would like to be a detective? But, you are not sure because that can change later?
C. Yes, that could change.
At this point, he stopped my recorder. We spoke again about if to do the interview with the recorder or not. We agree to use the recorder when I inform him if ok to omit information or not answer a question he doesn’t feel comfortable.
Recording number 2.
Mine. I don’t know if the other recording was kept but will continue from here on.
Please do not touch my recorder gain. Smile. That is not for you to touch. That is for your voice to go in there. Kidding but meant it.
Goals
Mine. What are you doing to achieve those goals?
C. Well, right now I am not doing anything. My first step is to finish HS after that…I will try to go to college. I have already the contact, a friend of mine she will try to set me up so I can try to go to college for free. After that, then I going to pick the career that I want to do.
Mine. Ok. Well, it sounds like you are on the right path. The thing about college is that is ok to in not knowing yet what you are going to major in because you still have time to explore. So, I do want to encourage you to go to college to get an education.
Mine. What could help reach those goals or what are your obstacles?
I could do whatever I want. There is not obstacle in the way.
Mine No?
C. NO, not at all. There are people who come way worse situation than I and then make it and if they make it, I can make it too.
Mine. Yes, I like you positivism. I really liked that.
Mine. You basically feel you can do anything….
C. I feel I can do it. If I keep repeating that to myself then I will. I just really have to be consistent in my believe in order to make it.
Mine What do you feel proud about?
C. Mostly, I like to read. I like writing poems and I never give up on working on that even when a mishap happens. I lost my work twice but I continue to write
Mine So, you do have some skills? That is skills. It is art. (me surprised)
Yeap.
Mine So, you feel most proud about that part of you
Yeap
Mine On that note, how do you think people see you?
C. I have no idea how people see me and I don’t really mind because I got to see myself for things I think are best for me. I don’t really mind how people see me. I really mind how my family sees me but people not related to me, I don’t care.
Mine How do you see yourself?
C. I see myself as a good person. I am on the right path I may sometimes be lets say well you know when you get to that question I may get to that question…
Maybe I won’t. Give it to me.
Mine About family related. I may argue with my Mom. Like, I recognize that is the only bad thing I have, besides that, I am good.
Mine Ok. But, I lot of times that is pretty normal during adolescence years.
Mine You know most adolescents argue with their parents
C. So, if that is not included, then I see myself as a good person.
Mine It is not included but it is included in the sense that everyone seems to go through that phase and it does not seem that you are a bad person.
C. Ok. So the question was…how do I see myself. I see myself as a normal regular person that want to succeed like everyone else in this world.
Mine Are you ambitious?
C. Yes, pretty ambitious. Not in a bad way though.
Mine No, in a good way.
Mine What school do you go to?
C. Piscataway Vocational School
Mine Where is that?
Mine In Piscataway
Mine Wait, how come you don’t go to New Brunswick High school?
C. I don’t go to that school, because Piscataway Vocational School trains you for a specific skill and recommend you for a job that pays minimum $15 hourly.
Mine Did you pick that school? How come you did not go to New Brunswick High School for example?
C. First reason, my Mom did not want me to go there and at first I wanted to go but then I said no.
Why?
C.I am not going to go there. I rather go to Piscataway Vocational School because that is the best choice. At that school, I can pick my main career and from there after I am done with school,
I choose Vocational Tech School because it is the best option for me. I choose three careers.
Automobile-got excluded because I did not want to wear the attire.
barber- was for females so I exclude myself.
Culinary Arts. I did not want to do just cleaning and that all I seem to be doing. So, the teacher also excluded me out.
Computer-last option.
Mine Because my Mom did not want me to go there.
Mine Why
C. Because of the problem, fight, family member problems and I would be getting confused as of my family member.
Mine Ok.
Mine How do people friends see u?
C. They don’t see me as a bad person. I respect them, they respect me
C. I don’t know how they see and I really don’t care. What I think that I know, I am as best I believe I am.
Mine How do you think she sees you?
C. I know she doesn’t see me as good as I see myself. That question you need to ask her whenever you have the time. But, I don’t think she sees me as I see myself?
Mine How do you think she sees you?
C.I am not going to answer that because that is something she would have to answer.
Mine. But, you know.. you know. How she sees you. (Here, he ask to pass the question) Said, go on..
Mine Ok.
C.I may know. But, I will not answer.
Mine Ok
Mine What is like living with your Mom?
C.I don’t feel uncomfortable.
Mine Good and Bad
C.Good-she has done a lot for us. Bad-she fights too much. She argues over anything. Besides that she is fine. She is still my Mom though.
Mine Of Course! She is your Mom and you love her no matter what.
Mine But, we cannot deny that at times we do wish it was better such as if she could change a bit.
Mine If there was something, you would change about her, what would it be?
C.I don’t have the power to change because only God can change her but if I did I would make her a person who argues less. Don’t argue and if you do don’t argue as much as you do because this is beyond normal level.
Mine What does she argue about?
C. Little things. Big things. About anything. For example, she would argue about a dish I did not promptly take to the kitchen after eating.
He said, I am already feeling uncomfortable.
Mine No, is ok. We are almost done.
Mine Can you give me some example of when you got frustrated and the reason.
I don’t get frustrated. I get mad and I scream or yell and raise my voice
Mine If you display anger is that not a sign of frustration?
C. No, I really don’t get frustrated. I just raise my voice to get her to listen.
I don’t even go out. I am scorpion. I like to be by myself. I am kind of shy so I don’t feel comfortable being among people.
Mine Is Ok not going out?
Yea, I rather stay at home
Mine What do you like to do for fun?
C. I like to go to the park, play catch, play basketball.
Mine It doesn’t have to be out to party. It can be just leaving the house to the park.
Well, if when I have the resources, the money and the things I like to stay home have a drink
Mine Do you drink?
C. Yea!
Mine Have you gotten drunk?
C. Not drunk not drunk
Mine How many times you have gotten drunk?
C.I don’t know.
Mine A lot! Like five? More,
C. Maybe 10? I don’t know.
Mine How bad have you gotten drunk?
C.Not overdrunk. I can control myself; I know what I am doing. Like I go to the bathroom where I am away from people, I am walking dizzy in the bathroom and when I get out I play it off. People don’t notice because they are drunk themselves. Not super drunk. I have thrown up in the bathroom but I know how to do things. I play things off. I know how to do things. If I know that I am drunk, I would just be with a beer and no one would notice.
Mine What places you have gotten drunk at?
C.I don’t drink that way when I go out. But, at home yea. At home in the house
Mine Do you have a driver’s license?
C. No, I am working on getting a permit.
Mine What does your mother says about you drinking?
C. She always says don’t be drinking too much.
Mine She yells?
C.Yea, but there she has the right too. Because I know she worries. Is like me. I be telling her don’t drink too much. Even I tell her don’t drink too much at times.
Mine Can you give examples or situations of when she got upset at you?
Did not want to provide example of when she got upset at him? (d)
Did not want to provide example of a situation when Mom approached him in a wrong way or upset. (d)
Mine Can you give me one? Declined (d)
C.Can you give her one? (Speaking to his brother).
Mine How would you describe your relationship with your mother?
C.I, I, I don’t know how to describe the relationship.
Mine So, you don’t have any problem right now?
C. Right now right now?
Mine Not right now, you are sitting in front of me.
C. There are issues but there is also love.
C.Well, with her, I don’t have any problems?
Analysis so far.
1.
C-person being interviewed
Mine=interviewer
What role does language create.
Mine On that note, how do you think people see you?
C. I have no idea how people see me and I don’t really mind because I got to see myself for things I think are best for me. I don’t really mind how people see me. I really mind how my family sees me but people not related to me, I don’t care.
Mine How do you see yourself?
C. I see myself as a good person. I am on the right path I may sometimes be let’s say well you know when you get to that question I may get to that question…
Mine. Maybe I won’t. Give it to me.
C. About family related. I may argue with my Mom. Like, I recognize that is the only bad thing I have, besides that, I am good.
Mine Ok. But, I lot of times that is pretty normal during adolescence years.
Mine You know most adolescents argue with their parents
C. So, if that is not included, then I see myself as a good person.
Mine It is not included; but it is included in the sense that everyone seems to go through that phase and it does not mean that you are a bad person.
C. Ok. So the question was…how I see myself. I see myself as a normal regular person that wants to succeed like everyone else in this world.
Mine Are you ambitious?
C. Yes, pretty ambitious. Not in a bad way though.
Mine No, in a good way.
What we have here is an adolescent who thinks he doing the right things to make it in this world but is unwared that he is reflecting a negative image of himself and he does not care.
2.
Mine What school do you go to?
C. Piscataway Vocational School
Mine Where is that?
Mine In Piscataway
Mine Wait, how come you don’t go to New Brunswick High school?
C. I don’t go to that school, because Piscataway Vocational School trains you for a specific skill and recommend you for a job that pays minimum $15 hourly.
Mine Did you pick that school? How come you did not go to New Brunswick High School for example?
C. First reason, my Mom did not want me to go there and at first I wanted to go but then I said no.
Why?
C.I am not going to go there. I rather go to Piscataway Vocational School because that is the best choice. At that school, I can pick my main career and from there after I am done with school,
I choose Vocational Tech School because it is the best option for me. I choose three careers.
Automobile-got excluded because I did not want to wear the attire.
barber- was for females so I exclude myself.
Culinary Arts. I did not want to do just cleaning and that all I seem to be doing. So, the teacher also excluded me out.
Computer-last option.
Mine Because my Mom did not want me to go there.
Mine Why
C. Because of the problem, fight, family member problems and I would be getting confused as of my family member.
Mine Ok.
Underlined question and answer
3.
Mine What is like living with your Mom?
C.I don’t feel uncomfortable.
Mine Tell me the Good and Bad
C.Good-she has done a lot for us. Bad-she fights too much. She argues over anything. Besides that she is fine. She is still my Mom though.
Mine Of Course! She is your Mom and you love her no matter what.
Mine But, we cannot deny that at times we do wish it was better such as if she could change a bit.
Mine If there was something, you would change about her, what would it be?
C.I don’t have the power to change her; only God can change her but if I did I would make her into a person who argues less. Don’t argue and if you do don’t argue as much as you do because this is beyond normal level.
Mine What does she argue about?
C. Little things. Big things. About anything. For example, she would argue about a dish I did not promptly take to the kitchen after eating.
He said, I am already feeling uncomfortable.
This area state that his mom does argue but that he feels alright living at home.
4
Mine It doesn’t have to be out to party. It can be just leaving the house to the park.
C. Well, if when I have the resources, the money and the things I like to stay home have a drink
Mine Do you drink alcohol?
C. Yea!
Mine Have you gotten drunk?
C. Not drunk drunk!
Mine How many times you have gotten drunk?
C.I don’t know.
Mine A lot! Like five? More,
C. Maybe 10? I don’t know.
Mine How bad have you gotten drunk?
C.Not over drunk. I can control myself; I know what I am doing. Like I go to the bathroom where I am away from people, I am walking dizzy in the bathroom and when I get out I play it off. People don’t notice because they are drunk themselves. Not super drunk. I have thrown up in the bathroom but I know how to do things. I play things off. I know how to do things. If I know that I am drunk, I would just be with a beer and no one would notice.
Mine What places you have gotten drunk at?
C.I don’t drink that way when I go out. But, at home yea. At home in the house
Mine Do you have a driver’s license?
C. No, I am working on getting a permit.
Mine What does your mother says about you drinking?
C. She always says don’t be drinking too much.
Mine She yells?
C.Yea, but there she has the right to. Because I know she worries. Is like me. I be telling her don’t drink too much. Even I tell her don’t drink too much at times.
Mine Can you give examples or situations of when she got upset at you?
Did not want to provide example of when she got upset at him? (d)
Did not want to provide example of a situation when Mom approached him in a wrong way or upset. (d)
Mine Can you give me one? Declined (d)
C.Can you give her one? (Speaking to his brother).
In this data I inquired about his social life
Analysis so far.
1.
C-person being interviewed
Mine=interviewer
What role does language create.
Mine On that note, how do you think people see you?
C. I have no idea how people see me and I don’t really mind because I got to see myself for things I think are best for me. I don’t really mind how people see me. I really mind how my family sees me but people not related to me, I don’t care.
Mine How do you see yourself?
C. I see myself as a good person. I am on the right path I may sometimes be let’s say well you know when you get to that question I may get to that question…
Mine. Maybe I won’t. Give it to me.
C. About family related. I may argue with my Mom. Like, I recognize that is the only bad thing I have, besides that, I am good.
Mine Ok. But, I lot of times that is pretty normal during adolescence years.
Mine You know most adolescents argue with their parents
C. So, if that is not included, then I see myself as a good person.
Mine It is not included; but it is included in the sense that everyone seems to go through that phase and it does not mean that you are a bad person.
C. Ok. So the question was…how I see myself. I see myself as a normal regular person that wants to succeed like everyone else in this world.
Mine Are you ambitious?
C. Yes, pretty ambitious. Not in a bad way though.
Mine No, in a good way.
What we have here is an adolescent who thinks he doing the right things to make it in this world but is unwared that he is reflecting a negative image of himself and he does not care.
2.
Mine What school do you go to?
C. Piscataway Vocational School
Mine Where is that?
Mine In Piscataway
Mine Wait, how come you don’t go to New Brunswick High school?
C. I don’t go to that school, because Piscataway Vocational School trains you for a specific skill and recommend you for a job that pays minimum $15 hourly.
Mine Did you pick that school? How come you did not go to New Brunswick High School for example?
C. First reason, my Mom did not want me to go there and at first I wanted to go but then I said no.
Why?
C.I am not going to go there. I rather go to Piscataway Vocational School because that is the best choice. At that school, I can pick my main career and from there after I am done with school,
I choose Vocational Tech School because it is the best option for me. I choose three careers.
Automobile-got excluded because I did not want to wear the attire.
barber- was for females so I exclude myself.
Culinary Arts. I did not want to do just cleaning and that all I seem to be doing. So, the teacher also excluded me out.
Computer-last option.
Mine Because my Mom did not want me to go there.
Mine Why
C. Because of the problem, fight, family member problems and I would be getting confused as of my family member.
Mine Ok.
Underlined question and answer
3.
Mine What is like living with your Mom?
C.I don’t feel uncomfortable.
Mine Tell me the Good and Bad
C.Good-she has done a lot for us. Bad-she fights too much. She argues over anything. Besides that she is fine. She is still my Mom though.
Mine Of Course! She is your Mom and you love her no matter what.
Mine But, we cannot deny that at times we do wish it was better such as if she could change a bit.
Mine If there was something, you would change about her, what would it be?
C.I don’t have the power to change her; only God can change her but if I did I would make her into a person who argues less. Don’t argue and if you do don’t argue as much as you do because this is beyond normal level.
Mine What does she argue about?
C. Little things. Big things. About anything. For example, she would argue about a dish I did not promptly take to the kitchen after eating.
He said, I am already feeling uncomfortable.
This area state that his mom does argue but that he feels alright living at home.
4
Mine It doesn’t have to be out to party. It can be just leaving the house to the park.
C. Well, if when I have the resources, the money and the things I like to stay home have a drink
Mine Do you drink alcohol?
C. Yea!
Mine Have you gotten drunk?
C. Not drunk drunk!
Mine How many times you have gotten drunk?
C.I don’t know.
Mine A lot! Like five? More,
C. Maybe 10? I don’t know.
Mine How bad have you gotten drunk?
C.Not over drunk. I can control myself; I know what I am doing. Like I go to the bathroom where I am away from people, I am walking dizzy in the bathroom and when I get out I play it off. People don’t notice because they are drunk themselves. Not super drunk. I have thrown up in the bathroom but I know how to do things. I play things off. I know how to do things. If I know that I am drunk, I would just be with a beer and no one would notice.
Mine What places you have gotten drunk at?
C.I don’t drink that way when I go out. But, at home yea. At home in the house
Mine Do you have a driver’s license?
C. No, I am working on getting a permit.
Mine What does your mother says about you drinking?
C. She always says don’t be drinking too much.
Mine She yells?
C.Yea, but there she has the right to. Because I know she worries. Is like me. I be telling her don’t drink too much. Even I tell her don’t drink too much at times.
Mine Can you give examples or situations of when she got upset at you?
Did not want to provide example of when she got upset at him? (d)
Did not want to provide example of a situation when Mom approached him in a wrong way or upset. (d)
Mine Can you give me one? Declined (d)
C.Can you give her one? (Speaking to his brother).
In this data I inquired about his social life
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